Antonio Cillóniz
Translated by María Juliana Villafañe
Foundry of pain
National Literary Award of Peru
VI
Because today more than Leonardo
exists Mona Lisa
because the Sunflowers of Van Gogh do not wither,
because after so many years
at this very moment
bombs are falling in Guernica.
This is what Plato feared of us
in his Republic.
XI
The salt with which I was baptized that day
remained planted for life
in the trails of blood and tears,
in the channels and dry wells of my flesh,
when it has transpired
in the dark and deep caves of my spirit, if it was absorbed,
it has remained as such forever
in the scattered dust of my body
or in the ashes of my bones,
such as oblivion, beyond my memory,
without any hope.
XVIII
With my own patience
that always turns to senescence
my trembling hand,
just planted a seed of tamarind
in a wasteland
that I know will give some red fruits
to the hungry and thirsty
embracing them under its shadow
and for those that might arrive
with the usual tiredness of a journey
the red tamarind will also be there
providing them with the relaxation
that its trunk always gives.
Here,
where I never had rest
and was not even able
to quench my hunger or thirst,
in times
where the crops were ours to handpick
but always belonged to others.
That is why now I plant
a red tamarind
that later others like us
even if they only plant
will also deliver its fruits
in a dawn that is looming
after our red sunset.
But I have also written
a few words in its cortex:
any time you take its pulp
or drink its juice
sow afterwards
plant also one of its seeds.
XIX
I could say today
that I am a tree
or I am here as a stone,
but then I would be giving up
being able to talk to you
just in the name of someone like you.
Because this is like the lyrebird
that with its song
imitates the noise of a chainsaw
cutting down the forest,
or the sound of a blacksmith’s anvil
with its iron blows
and the panting of the peasant
always weeding by himself a field
blinded under the hot sun,
but it is simply the voice of a bird,
except that it is oneself who assumes it
among all those, who imitate me,
whether being a domestic parrot
wild crows
or even a single jay
just mimicking a blackbird.
XXIX
However, I could have had a car
(as I have now)
or have been a bus driver,
but I studied philosophy
and journalism,
later with the trade I learned
to be somewhat a psychologist
or sociologist,
but not enough to face life as such.
I have also written books
and published some articles
in newspapers or magazines.
Today I regret deeply
that I am not driving a taxicab,
they come and go quietly as they please,
they leave or pick up whomever they want
stop where and when they desire,
without having to drink
the full glass of hemlock I am being offered.
Republic of Barbarians
donkeys on asses backs
I
Perhaps I should ask for more calm
for enough patience
or maybe it is all a dream
like an endless nightmare
or just like a catastrophe
that ends up being
no longer a broken dream
nor sleepless nightmare
but then pure vigil before the harsh reality.
II
But how many times
Alice views in a mirror
the wonders that make
of her country a beautiful world,
that is also how I
see my country
in that same mirror
that I contemplate everyday
but at least there
you can always see the opposite
on both sides.
III
Who forbids me
to speak to the clouds by myself and in silence?
Or to the emptiness behind that sky?
Who urges me to be in the sheepfold?
Who to follow the herd of sheep
up to the fold where
we are imprisoned?
And here, what does it matter
that there, camels go through the eye of a needle?
Or, to the poor
that here on earth the rich
being dead
do not go to heaven,
if here they fly alive,
meanwhile the rest of us drag
without even a roof
nor a ground to drop dead on?
IV
Who forbids me
to speak to the clouds by myself and in silence?
Or to the emptiness behind that sky?
Who urges me to be in the sheepfold?
Who to follow the herd of sheep
up to the fold where
we are imprisoned?
And here, what does it matter
that there, camels go through the eye of a needle?
Or, to the poor
that here on earth the rich
being dead
do not go to heaven,
if here they fly alive,
meanwhile the rest of us drag
without even a roof
nor a ground to drop dead on?
dark camber
1
You are here now.
In front of a pamphlet.
The one of life
against death.
The one who calls for peace
in the midst of war.
The one that nevertheless also knows
that both sides are at fault.
While it is true
that every guilt is different in them,
innocence never shows itself indifferent,
it never shelters anyone.
After the flames that then embraced
the still living body of Michael Servetus
like that eventually
millions of men have also burned.
Over some logs, before flamethrowers, under napalm.
Definitely we are
before an angry pamphlet.
Meanwhile men
of every forsaken god,
like children of a satanic wrath
only show the smiling face of their masks.
Oh, flames of martyrdom
in the bonfires of the inquisition.
Equal to the sacrifice
as an offering to the gods for rain.
Oh, political leaders, warlords, militants
who hand over their children
in front of their mothers
in front of a Calvary.
And oh, priests of the temples converting
Golgotha into an oracle.
And the place of the skull in salvation.
2
I am at the table
reading a newspaper
while having breakfast.
I read that the Dominican Republic
is being invaded.
I change newspapers.
The United States
bombs Hanoi.
Then I looked at a magazine.
There are pictures of Grenada
from when it was invaded.
I turn on a transistor.
The invader is devastating Iraq.
I turn on the television.
You can see the moment
when General Collins demonstrates
the effectiveness of his missiles
in black and white.
The blood can only be guessed
in darker gray tones.
But someone is calling me
on the phone.
I am sorry, I am going to see who it is.
3
Now
I am sitting
reading another newspaper.
I brings the news
that all the countries
that are members of NATO
have sanctioned the invader of Ukraine.
I must leave you,
someone is ringing the doorbell.


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